Poetry: "Delusion during painful separation"

"Delusion during painful separation"

In this painful night of separation,

Solitude whispered into my ear..

“Feel it!”

This pain has left me of nowhere,

Tears dropping down continuously..

Like the martyr’s trickling blood!

In Your hope, I keep sitting here.

As if you have said, “sit here, wait for me!”

My delusion keeps me satisfied!

~ Afterwind

Ultimate waywardness (poem)

Sometimes I ran after winds and dust storms-
got stumbled on many unknown routes and wastelands
So that they started calling me madman!

I worshiped stars, prayed skies, kept idols within my heart,
So much that I lost my wits and my faith..
so that they could execute me

I quarreled with rationalists as their ideas didn't match with mine;
disconnected with spiritualists as their deeds couldn't catch up my heeds
So that they at last made me out of them

I got broken my vows, became dishonest
broken my heart, became loser
- So that I could stop

For You.. O Lord, no one could ever know.. I was for You!

Love and pain

This pain burning my each fragment.. .

Love is sublimation, changing the material heart into the longing
Pain is condensation, changing the longing into the tears
Everything evil in the soul, perishes
and she comes purified out of the flames of this test!

Only the strong heart is capable of carrying this heavy burden
Only the strong soul has power to keep strong hope

O Mighty Lord, O Sustainer of heavens and earths!
support the stumbling hearts and fearing souls, and render the righteous-love victor!
before You, I surrender myself!

I sold myself in bazar,

I sold myself in bazar, to buy your 1 photo.. .

~ afterwind

Ignorant Love

You never have loved me.
Have loved yourself in fact.
for comfort and leisure,

Flashing golds, sparkling lights.
not the warmth of the protecting arm,
not the simplicity of lover's heart!

Had you loved me,
then why should have forced the things
to outdo the exhausted values.

Why had not changed yourself for the truth,
to become simply mine.
Perhaps one day will realize!

©Afterwind Poetry

Poem: It is a party of night, prepare the tavern

محفل ِ شب ہے سجادو میخانہ
پلا پلا کے مجھے بنا دو میخانہ

آج شب بھر شمع نہ بجھنے دو
لہو پلاؤ اسے، جلادو پروانہ

شراب تھوڑی سی بہادو روزن سے
تیری دہلیز پہ کب سے کھڑا ہے دیوانہ

تیری گلی سے گزر کے زاہد بدمست ہوا
کیسا پردہ تیرا، کیسا شرمانا

میرے نشے کی آخر کوئی انتہا تو ہو
توڑ دو ساغر سارے جلادو میخانہ

ساقی ساغر ہے تیرا میرا رشتہ
معطرنظریں میریں، پاک تیرا میخانہ

رمز ِ توحید آج آشکارہ ہوجائے
شہر ِ جنوں میں بہادو میخانہ

شاعر: (آفٹرونڈ) طارق رشید

Translation:

It is a party of night, prepare the tavern
give me, give me drink so much, make me tavern myself

don't let the candle blow out tonight
feed her the drink of blood, though at expense of caterpillar's life

pour some drink from the window
since how long at Your threshold, see, is standing a madman

even the pious forget his wits while crossing Your street
what a face-veiling is your this!!? what kind of blushing is this?

there should also be some ending of my narcosis
shatter all the chalices, burn the tavern off

oh, the Host, chalice is relation between You and me..
my eyes are fragrant with respect, Your tavern is sacred and clean

let the secret of Oneness (monotheism) be exposed today,
spill the wines of love in the city of passion!

(a poem of Afterwind)

Sincerity has value, repenting brings sainthood

photo by rebelot

یہ منظوم دعا میں نے ماضی میں لکھی تھی، شائع کررہا ہوں۔ امید ہے آپ کی روحانی ضرورتوں کو پورا کرے گی۔ (آفٹر ونڈ) طارق رشید

اخلاص کی قیمت ہے تیرے دربار میں مولا
توبہ سے ولایت ہے تیرے سنسار میں مولا

اِن بھیگی نگاہوں سے دو قطرے گراکر
لایا ہوں حضور تیرے دربار میں مولا

تو دیتا رہا اتنا کہ شُکر بھی کم تھا
ہر لحظہ تیرے حضور شرمسار میں مولا

سرکار (صلی اللہ علیہ وسلم) کی سنت میں رنگ تیرا ہے
آجائے تیرا رنگ میرے کردار میں مولا

دنیا سے اُٹھانا مجھے در ِ حالتِ سجدہ
اور مے بھی پلانا تیرے دیدار کی مولا

......

Translation: Sincerity has worth in Your court, O Lord

Sincerity has worth in Your court, O Lord
Repentance may convert sinners into saints, in Your this world, O Lord

Two droplets after shedding from these wet eyes,
I have have brought them to present in the court of Your Majesty!

You kept giving off to me so much , that even my frustrated thankfulness became answer-less!
Every moment, I feel shy in front of You, O Lard

The tradition or practice of Muhammad (upon him peace) reflects Your light,
Would that that light also reflect into my character! O Lard

When will the time of leaving come, lift my soul in my state of prostration during the practice of prayer,
And also quench my thirst with the wine of manifestation (theophany/divine disclosure) of Your beauty!

(a poem of Afterwind)

win or lose!

oh, the purpose!

if i will be the successful
i will be the happiest person

and if lose,
will cry a lot

in both situations, the thing is same
'that i loved you very much'

the wish was true!

























© Copyright Afterwind
first photo: by wszullberg, second photo: by weimieweim

Pour

Pour more...
Your true wine of love
That the each drop of which could give an immortal life
That the each blow of whose smell is blended in the misty steam of eternity
That which stays behind the brightest cloud

Oh... who can stay after the deluge has set down
Oh... who can rises up through the chest as a sharp painful joy!
Accompanying the empty tears
Oh... The feeling of strange exuberance
Take me to the One who is the Doctor of broken hearts : Savior of the wrecked sob dwellers

Thank God..

Hope

when the heart was dim

everything seemed dull to these eyes

when the hope has come back

the life raised quite fresh 

standing in the flowing current of life 

~+~

Life Back

Flowers, flowers, every where

blessing, sunshine and love

why the heart is happy so much..

a dying hope resurrected

some one rose from dead

a putting off star became a sun

the spirals of mysterious fate

and its crests and troughs

and pains and fleeting happiness,

all estopped at a moment

no queasiness, nothing now,

but peace, timelessness and relief 

who took my heart and met me to the light of hope!

this is You, O my Lord! Allah!

the heart like a sponge..

at the moment you were leaving,

the heart

seemed dry,

and no tears!

at the moment you have left,

the heart is

like a sponge,

shrinks,

giving off a lot of water!

made me clean by my own tears

this night has pain of separation, 

and sufi music sound, 

and a little sweet pain in my heart,

  ..  tears in eyes,,,

            i was a sinner, you made me clean by my own tears

i can't cry, my heart is dead

my plane is taking off..

but

i can't cry

my heart is dead

because my heart is dead now

you think, i don't love you 

it is not true

still i love you

but i have forgotten how to miss you

pains, sorrows, disgrace, hunger and poverty

i have become a bird between fear and hope

separations and unions

many deluges of uncertainties and enforced austerities of life

have taken away my tears, awareness, smile and naive freshness

forgive me..

i can't cry

my heart is dead

but I still love you!

© afterwind

Picture source: by ericakulet [external link]

that will make you forget our love one day

"fear"

i told you

i told you

i already told you

you haven't reached the meaning of love

whatever you have toward me is nothing but ego and greed

in fact you never truly loved me

the tears you shed were the tears of a babe for a toy only

you don't know to sacrify, you just need to be gratified

with pleasures, words,,, lies and world!

i told you

i told you

i already told you

tonight

the last night before separation

when the withering heart needs compassion

when i need you

to soak my tears

to lower my soabs

in the very time when you are supposed to be with me

you are indulged in the pleasures, in the partying, in the lights

you say, let me enjoy, still i am yours!

now i also want to say

i don't want to come in between you and your happiness

but what should also i do!

from me, they are stealing you

busy, busy, busy

even on the last night

you don't want to listen to my heart cry

this time, even you don't want to be mine!

and still you say, "i love you"

i told you

i told you

i already told you

The light of enjoyment, taste of delicious food and happy puns of rich friends will make you forget our love one day

i told you

i told you

i already told you

if you keep on doing this,

how can you become mine?

~+~

"Sure"

No matter wherever you move away

I know, on your cheeks tears will have a sway!

The pain of separation makes you crazy

it will change a stone heart into daisy

no matter, to wherever you face, 

but if your hand is in my hand,

 

i shall take you into my cottage!

© afterwind

image sources:

fisrt,         lights in last night's rain storm by Zombie37 [external link]

second,     Rain Tapping On My Window by Thomas Steibl Photography [external link]

third,       Rain on the Train (Not in Spain) by jessamyn.n [external link]

fourth,     Rain wave - Muddy water by Yatzi [external link]

Empty hands..

~Prayer~

I begged for love

to come and fill up my heart

with its freshness

Heaven accepted my prayers

and my cravings and sobs voices

were coveyed to the love

who was busy in merry-making and comforts and pleasures

at the thousands of miles away into the celestial worlds

beyond red, green and grey mountains.. ah, the love...

~Arrival~

ah, the love

when it listened to my cravings

stopped every of its functions

fumbled hurriedly to take its shawl patched with pink stars, wrapped around its shoulders

and that star eyed embodiment, 'the love'

rushed towards me

keeping many stars of affection, kindness and love in its hands!!

~disappointment~

when it came to this our world,

it found a man of my 'name'.. "the human"

but it could never found the real me

standing at my address,

its face is down, and eyes are glum

~departure~

it came to receive a heart..

but here is nothing, except pains, greed, wars, tears, greeds, fitna..

what else could we offer as a gift

to appease its heart, 

which had been already lost somewhere in this world and

at last it was worried for the feelings of loss of emotions

so, it's returning to its unknown world empty-handed!

© afterwind

pictures from flickr as uploaded by lancelonie, Ann and Educated Savage

Poetry: Seperation!

sun, moon are injury signs of this heart
stars are spread tears of these eyes
i have illuminated all this world of night for You
still wherefore art Thou evading this lover?

photo: *Sherry*

Sing.. sing.. sing.. transcend the skies..

Picture Courtesy, originally uploaded by Frogdeck.

oh holy pigeon of love
your eyes have every colour of life and feelings
your heart is always fluttering like a green flag of sufis
and nerves always flowing with the tears of emotions
oh sentient being
oh sensible heart..

this is not your place
this is full of contamination by griefs
ruined & dilapidated by miseries
aah.. garden and dry grass
and some murky sunlight
only autums resides here with few dry leaves

oh my heart!!
fly high.. go into the skies..
sing.. sing.. sing.. transcend the skies..

Purity

Picture Courtesy, originally uploaded by mambo1935.

~
what makes the heart dance in joy
what makes the eyes see the world clear
what makes all senses feel every emotion
even that of whithering leaves
russling over the lonely roads of life
what makes us know the love

it is purity,

the water of time will keep on flowing
as long it is destined to flow
but the silence will get on laughing
as much pain it saw in the times of pain
the love will shine on day
the sun will rise
and the first ray of light will knock every glum door
and the eyes will raise thankfully!

May our hearts be translucent
to let some beams pass in to shine
making us stars
in this world
and in the real place

how many eyes got water?
how many hearts came forth with love!?
water has reflection of dome
love has fragrance of thoughts
and the sky is bright
and the wind mild

nature flows in the air
eyes look on emptyness in the space
as we are in nowwhere
but still in love!

peace on all
sentient beings!

Purely!!! .. Sweet Nights of Love!

Taklamakan up close, originally uploaded by Kiwi Mikex.

Do You remember the beautiful wonderful nights, we passed together!
beside the dark night shade
even the star had been off
and no one else was there
except Thee and me!

it was so wonderful
so beautiful
like kissing on the black dot
in the middle of wonderful glowing white skin of pale love..

oh Honey, i love running after your white shades
for all of my this short miserable worthless life!

and the green tee
pure, deep
and peasantly little harsh in taste!
and the fragrant, fertile, rich, wetty vapours from tee
penetrating into mind
it was a best tee of ever
which i enjoyed in Your company!

You met me
but from so many veils..
so many..!!
so many..!!
to which one should i sacrify my heart on!

Oh, my Honey..
please don't betray me
by keeping so many veils
let me have You
or..
You have me!
Purely!!!

without You..

Ume, Japanese plum, originally uploaded by autan.

How could I live without you..
tell me O Honey!

All the nights had gone
This night will also go too far
BUT this moment will never pass..

still great lofty..
This moment of peace and love!

Step into the light, originally uploaded by Pakueye.