Poetry: "Delusion during painful separation"

"Delusion during painful separation"

In this painful night of separation,

Solitude whispered into my ear..

“Feel it!”

This pain has left me of nowhere,

Tears dropping down continuously..

Like the martyr’s trickling blood!

In Your hope, I keep sitting here.

As if you have said, “sit here, wait for me!”

My delusion keeps me satisfied!

~ Afterwind

the heart like a sponge..

at the moment you were leaving,

the heart

seemed dry,

and no tears!

at the moment you have left,

the heart is

like a sponge,

shrinks,

giving off a lot of water!

made me clean by my own tears

this night has pain of separation, 

and sufi music sound, 

and a little sweet pain in my heart,

  ..  tears in eyes,,,

            i was a sinner, you made me clean by my own tears

i can't cry, my heart is dead

my plane is taking off..

but

i can't cry

my heart is dead

because my heart is dead now

you think, i don't love you 

it is not true

still i love you

but i have forgotten how to miss you

pains, sorrows, disgrace, hunger and poverty

i have become a bird between fear and hope

separations and unions

many deluges of uncertainties and enforced austerities of life

have taken away my tears, awareness, smile and naive freshness

forgive me..

i can't cry

my heart is dead

but I still love you!

© afterwind

Picture source: by ericakulet [external link]

that will make you forget our love one day

"fear"

i told you

i told you

i already told you

you haven't reached the meaning of love

whatever you have toward me is nothing but ego and greed

in fact you never truly loved me

the tears you shed were the tears of a babe for a toy only

you don't know to sacrify, you just need to be gratified

with pleasures, words,,, lies and world!

i told you

i told you

i already told you

tonight

the last night before separation

when the withering heart needs compassion

when i need you

to soak my tears

to lower my soabs

in the very time when you are supposed to be with me

you are indulged in the pleasures, in the partying, in the lights

you say, let me enjoy, still i am yours!

now i also want to say

i don't want to come in between you and your happiness

but what should also i do!

from me, they are stealing you

busy, busy, busy

even on the last night

you don't want to listen to my heart cry

this time, even you don't want to be mine!

and still you say, "i love you"

i told you

i told you

i already told you

The light of enjoyment, taste of delicious food and happy puns of rich friends will make you forget our love one day

i told you

i told you

i already told you

if you keep on doing this,

how can you become mine?

~+~

"Sure"

No matter wherever you move away

I know, on your cheeks tears will have a sway!

The pain of separation makes you crazy

it will change a stone heart into daisy

no matter, to wherever you face, 

but if your hand is in my hand,

 

i shall take you into my cottage!

© afterwind

image sources:

fisrt,         lights in last night's rain storm by Zombie37 [external link]

second,     Rain Tapping On My Window by Thomas Steibl Photography [external link]

third,       Rain on the Train (Not in Spain) by jessamyn.n [external link]

fourth,     Rain wave - Muddy water by Yatzi [external link]

Empty hands..

~Prayer~

I begged for love

to come and fill up my heart

with its freshness

Heaven accepted my prayers

and my cravings and sobs voices

were coveyed to the love

who was busy in merry-making and comforts and pleasures

at the thousands of miles away into the celestial worlds

beyond red, green and grey mountains.. ah, the love...

~Arrival~

ah, the love

when it listened to my cravings

stopped every of its functions

fumbled hurriedly to take its shawl patched with pink stars, wrapped around its shoulders

and that star eyed embodiment, 'the love'

rushed towards me

keeping many stars of affection, kindness and love in its hands!!

~disappointment~

when it came to this our world,

it found a man of my 'name'.. "the human"

but it could never found the real me

standing at my address,

its face is down, and eyes are glum

~departure~

it came to receive a heart..

but here is nothing, except pains, greed, wars, tears, greeds, fitna..

what else could we offer as a gift

to appease its heart, 

which had been already lost somewhere in this world and

at last it was worried for the feelings of loss of emotions

so, it's returning to its unknown world empty-handed!

© afterwind

pictures from flickr as uploaded by lancelonie, Ann and Educated Savage

what is love..!!!

photo by dreamtwine

The way where we used to meet in past,

dust swirls over there now..

because there is no more vibrations of your sound there!

life has abandoned that way,

thus making my heart dusty and full of sorrow!!"

--

But life can sometime be a circle
we leave sadly from one point,
and soon we find ourselves reached at the same point again happily

every pain has a cure, because
God is the Great!

Preservation: Loving regardless of the meeting face-to-face..

photo credit: by kaycatt

"Although we have lost physical contact and never seen each other since months"

the girl wrote in the chat window in the computer,

"I dont know how come are we going on until now!"

the lover replied:

"I know about God since my childhood

without having seen Him

and still I am going on with Him! -

  This is a matter of belief!"

- Tariq Rasheed

where are you...!!??

The way where we used to meet in past,
dust swirls over there now..

because there is no more vibrations of your sound there!
life has abandoned that way,
thus making my heart dusty and full of sorrow!!

Seperation..

Photo Source: Full Moon over Albion Bridge, Mendocino, originally uploaded by Rita Crane.

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Separation

you left in the may, i wept in the june..
come back soon !

Separation is unbearable..
and all the june is to pass..
& all that memories,
silent cravings about to faint away !
but who comes back with a smile !
Fie on you, oh' miserable heart !

(c) afterwind

~+~

The Answer

We wrote a hundred letters, and you did not write an answer.
This, too, is a reply. - Zauqi

(Text Source: from Book "The Way Of The Sufi" by Idries Shah)

~+~


Respect and Separation

A bird got mad in the love of moon,
the moon lived on the sea surface, and bird in nest,
the bird was red, and the moon white,
once the bird could not control, and flew towards the moon to meet him,
the moon set in the sea,
the bird plunged after it into the sea, and drowned !

Meeting is an urge, a provocation
Separation is respect, respect is separation

(c) afterwind

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Pain of Separation

You pull stretch out the strings of my chest,
from the right.. from the left
as if it is your instrument
and you are playing new melodies over it, not known to me before
why you are doing this to me !!? Why !!!

Sometimes you seems to be in moon, and sometimes in stars
sometimes in flower, sometimes in dew drop
i am chasing you or you are chasing me?
why you are doing this to me !!? Why !!!

Do you remember the june, when the bulbul wept for you,
when you made her life a hell, but sweet like heaven,
Neither you came, nor you go,
why are you doing so !!? Why !!!

Oh' my miserable heart, come back into me
he will come after the knock, if he will come
why you are waiting for him out on the cold street
come back inside, come back to sleep,
why you are doing this to me !!? Why !!!

(c) afterwind

~+~

Poetry: seperation

Photo credit: flickr (originally uploaded by briantmurphy.)

~+~

Nothing but burning sobs and tears tonight.
No way out and no patience left.
Last night our hearts had a moment together,
I suppose this is how I have to pay for it!

- Abu-Said Abil-Kheir



Text Source:
Nobody, Son of Nobody: Poems of Shaikh Abu-Saeed Abil-Kheir, Translated by Vraje Abramianalso thanks to: http://www.poetry-chaikhana.com/A/AbilKheirAbu/